WOMEN!

Oh my I'm posting again, I think I am getting better at this! You better be PROUD heehee!

Well nobody probably reads this thang, and if you do your awesome, thanks for letting me eat up 5 minutes of your wonderful day.

Well, a little off subject about the things I usually write about, but I was thinking on my way to work about how EVERY relationship I have with girls are so messed up! Don't get me wrong I think I'm a nice guy, I'll open the door for my girl on a daily and I love to love etc...and it's not their fault because usually they are truly into me and vise versa but as soon as I get the "So Carlos what are we?" question I suddenly lose interest in them. What is up with that?! I feel I have no control over it. This conversation happens with EVERY girl I date ..check this!

Me-""hey, what do you wanna eat?""

them-""hmmm, I'm not hungry, Carlos we need to talk""

Me-(gulp) ""ummm why what's up? oh I know what it is...it's um you had a bad day, do you want to kiss...muah?""

them-""thanks babe...*grin* But, really...umm it just that one of my girls asked me what we were and...um""

ME-""did you tell her that we just play kissy face? ROAR! heehee""

them-""no, no, Carlos, really what are we so I can tell her""

ME-""well, I like you a ton BUT, UMMMMM I'm just SO busy I don't think it's fair to you to make a commitment to me I think your great, beautiful, and I get chills around you everytime, but, I just dont have the time, ya know""

Them-""mmm, ok, but can we talk about this later?""

Me-""cool, sure, I guess""

Then I am O-U-T and suddenly really busy, it happens everytime!!!! WHY!!!!! WHY!!!!!??

I was thinking why do people have to call thier relationships something ugh, and it's not like I am hooking with other girls it's just if I am dedicated to you and only you you will know, ya know, I will commit when I'm ready and at this point in my life/career I am just not ready I guess, I don't know...I am so jaded with dating I really am, but with out that how am I going to meet my future, my QUEEEN? I think supa dupa deep in my brain I know exactly what I want and I am spending time with these girls to pass time, til I find my true love....hmmmm...I don't know....And if you are one of the WONDERFUL girls I have dated and your reading this, sorry. I really am.

ah well...if you have any advise for me shoot me an email....well I got to schedule some music!

later!

Carlos D

www.carlosd.com