Random thoughts

OK OK OK...The little dude is hanging on til the very last day hehe..

So, this was my weekend.
Friday: Well, my girly had signs of going into labor...her MAIN doctor said she was dilated 4 centimeters which is great bacause that would mean she is at least a quarter of where she needs to be...but when we went to the trioge (sp?) they said she was only 2centimetersbut she's getting there, her contractions haven't got that strong either but she's getting them. Man, I can't explain how anxious I am to meet him, Zariah is a different story, poor thing she is so uncomfortable and heartburn is REALLY bad so anxious is really an understatement for her, and she is SO excited to meet him too!
It is truley exciting!

I know this is kinda off subject, BUT it's been on my mind...

I don't understand how people can abandon their kids, not saying I am this perfect person but I feel SOOOO much love for this new person in my life and I haven't even met him yet. I just don't understand. I am so excited to be a Father/Mentor/Friend/Role Model etc etc for him. I realize being a Father has it's challenges but man, how could somebody be so selfish and leave their kids/kid? Doesn't make any sense to me what so ever. I also understand everybody is in a different situation but really.. ya know?

I ton of things have been on my mind these last couple of months...I want to be the best man I could possibly be for my little man and my family, I have so much abition already but man these past couple of months it has multiplyed ten fold...I want to BE THE BEST! Like my parents were/are for me...They have instilled great things in me, have given me the best life anyone could ever ask for, been there when I was at the lowest in my life to pick me up and been there cheering me on my whole life, and they are stil there for me in every way possible, I can'y even type all the great and wonderful things these people have done for me. I want to love them and be there for my kid like they were there for me...whew! So ya that is what has been on my mind.


So I am off Tuesday-Thursday, hopefully the little man will be here I will def keep you updated.

-Salud to this new journey in my life!
Carlitos